monotonous week, started with a monotonous day.
actually not that monotonous la. had my PR presentation this morning. was extremely kan chiong can. and qiyi was like, dun look so fierce!! haha. i'm not fierce luh. it's my default setting for facial expression. uh, maybe some plastic surgery will do me some good. like a nicer nose, chiseled face, bigger eyes, higher cheek bones, and i'm just kidding. too many good things come together will form a monster face. wahaha.
finally this project ended, but i kinda enjoy the presence of my grp mates somehow. esp elyn. :) nice team, almost. ok i cant help but to uh despise. tsk. okok sorry i go repent soon.
and my uterus drop me a bomb today and left me half dead for the rest of the day. CRAP. feels like shits. and i know tml will be another half dead day. CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAP.
1 more mth to nightmares. and where is my taiwan???????? come on, let me breathe the taiwan air soon!!!
and my USA air too pls. and bintan air. and scuba diving air too!
i wanna leave home. she's irritating me soooo much. adopt me! any takers?
u wish.
(unless u're betty, lol.)
and she simply dont understand what does busy with school work and all means.
i came home last night and find my pillows and blanket thrown all over the floor, my bed out of place and bedsheets out. the only think she din do to make me walk out of house is to sweep all my books and papers on the floor.
when i'm busy with projects, spending close to 7 hours straight on TR class and project, she thinks i'm out playing. and when i'm close to tears overwhelmed with stress, she refuse to listen to me.
with my exams just 1 month away and all my projects, i'm almost on the verge of crying when i was on the cab to service. hopeless and helpless.
i'm stressed with my head almost bursting. but who understands? not even ur own mother and makes things difficult for u. i'm tired. and i cant help throwing temper at him. it's unfair i know. i just cant help. i'm sorry. i know u care, and i do appreciate it. i'm sorry.
behind all happy posts there's always a very tired author, sick of school, projects, tests and readings. and when there's a freeloader in every single bloody project group, i just donno how long more i can hold on. dont ask me why i get so pissed by insignificant ppl like them. i just do. it irritates the hell out of me. they're there not to help, i'm just afraid that they will jeopardize thie whole project. just like my NM2216. idea close to perfection, i'm so proud of the project, it's almost like our baby, with thanks to nat, sf, am. and when presentation comes, BAM, GONE. u feel the pain? it's only a project i know. but u know there's just no spirit of excellence?
when ur grp member tell u tat she's busy shopping at the bazaar when u're suppose to be having meeting,
when ur group member disappears frm class and stop replying emails,
when ur group member opens up her laptop and do her down stuff during project meeting,
when ur group member is busy copying her own notes from someone else's lect notes during meeting,
when ur member keeps her bloody mouth shut for the whole 2 hours project meeting and just sits there like a vase.
it might sound easy for others to take. but not when u end up sitting infront of ur laptop, checking the report at 3am when those freeloaders are happily sleeping away.
it's FRUSTRATING. i'm tired. just too tired now.
finally. the week is ending. i'm almost fainting with like 5 projects and all the other stupid tests.
time to take a break! swimming later maybe. at 9pm?! yes. i think that's cool. haha.
Time passes by
For more than a lifetime
I want to be yours girl
I would give up my life
To spend just one night with you
Cause my love don't stop
I can't lie you bring out the best in me
I gots to be yours girl
I would give up my life
Theres nothin that i won't do
Cause my love don't stop
awww, sing this for me and i'll be urs.
i'm just kidding. wahahah. not that EASY luh. aint a boy toy. :)
but it's an awfully nice song. awww. :)
okay i got bittem by some HUGE stress bug today. oh noooooooo。
わたしはリオナです。シンガポール国立大学の学生です。今年二十歳です。たんじょうびは六月十四日です。
まいにちバスと地下鉄で大学へ行きます。
きょうは十月二十四日です。にほんごのクラスはとてもむずかしですよ。
晩ご飯はパンを食べます。
日本語の勉強します、あした term test がありますから。
okay off to study にほんご！
大変ですね！！！
in the midst of all crazy projects, unfinished readings, pending homework, he accompany me to go shopping and made my day. :) so so sweet. and bought me 2 tops. oops. huge change from the unshoppable boy to do-anything-to-make-u-happy boyfriend. awww. so sweeeet.
i'm still quite high frm the excitement of signing the contract to go states. wheeeeeeee. cant wait.
projects driving me crazzzzzzzzzzzy!
okay i shouldnt be here blogging now. oops. haha.
CIAO!
i'm going to the states. YES I'M GOING TO NEW YORK! YAY!!!!!! that's the happiest news i've received in the past 2 weeks. :)
and so i'm going to disappear for 3 months, living the american life in new york. i'm not quite sure what's so attractive abt the american life, but i'm sure going to enjoy travelling around! new york city, boston, florida. oh my goodness! i'm floating already. YAY!!!!!! nigera falls, miami ink for my very much desired tattoos (plural). wahaha. and i'll find many many things to do to make my 3 months very fulfilling. and most of all, meet new ppl, make frens across borders (other students frm other countries will be working there too). omg i'm so so HIGH.
i hope to shop alot, haha. though thats not my priority. just wanna enjoy my stay there. :)
and i'm staying with betty, hyper carol and vivien. :)
i'm going to find loads of crazy stuff to mark my 21st. nobody really remembers it in singapore anyway, except for my girls and boy la. so i'm going to make it really really special!
so so happy!
3 mths in USA?! i'm just blessed.
oh and thanks to my dad and his superb speeding skills, i'm manage to reach the hotel early for the interview. lol. from woodlands to orchard in 10 mins. woots. applause please. hahahaha.
:) :) :)
firefox is distracting. i'm having fun and wasting time on changing the themes. haha. but firefox is good! try it!
projects are piling up and this is a really REALLY hectic week. super stressed, water retention due to pms. it cant get worse. thank God, this is ending soon. :)
i'm currently addicted to welcome to wherever you are by bon jovi. it's like how meaningful. it would prolly change my condition of inferior complex if i heard this like 6 or 7 years ago.
and i miss my girls badly. i kept thinking about the times when we had so much fun in hong kong, going crazy every night. haha. like irritating chew in bed by pulling the blanket allll they way to my side. lol. we need to meet up soon luh.
i need a good break with shopping incentives. i havent been buying shoes and it feels weird. haha. addicted huh.
alrighty, off to gym now!
sch to do project later. sigh. give me more brain cells.
Maybe we're all different
But we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden running to our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You caught between just who you are and who you want to be
If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are
When everybody's in and you're left out
And you feel drowning in a shadow of the dawn
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself not what other people say
When it seems you're lost alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different, just take a look around
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Be who you want to be, be who you are
Everyone's a hero, everyone's a star
When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God's make no mistakes
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
(I say welcome) Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far (welcome)
Remember that you're perfect, God's make no mistakes
u feel it? :) this touched me. and how much God loves us. :)
those small eyes. wide grin.
big warm hands. long embracing arms.
i'm adoring u.
hold me close. with my heart so close to yours.
loves. :)
there will be a million things to put u down in life. but it just takes 1 good thing to bring u up to cloud 9. :)
for those ticks and good comments, i life it all up as praises to You.
okay, i'm addicted to this song. =D
enjoy.
yay 5k yesterday. wheeeeeeeee. shiok. and 3k on monday. hohoho. dont u just feel guilty sitting down there growing ur fats while i'm buring my fats. WAHAHAHA. okay not funny -__-
nobody seems to accept the fact that the red patch is just a heat rash that itched for 3 weeks. -_- and its NOT funny lor. argh.
my nihongo is getting frm bad to worse.
projects are pilling up. since when they dun anyway.
readings are enough to bury me alive.
oh my mama.
but i'm going taiwanwanwanwan!!! yay. not bad huh, at least smth to hype me up. TAIWANWANWANWANWAN!
i'm going on a major diet spree. =D
and i wish for some unlimited shopping spree.
i'm going TAIWAN! TAIWAN! TAIWAN! yay! 7days taiwan tour. wheee. and maybe bintan for his bday at dec? or diving at philippines at dec? and another diving trip march 2008. and USA NYC or florida for 3 months frm may to july 2008! and i hope and hope for australia or korea dec 2008.
greedy? maybe not. just blessed. :)
counting down to 10 dec. HOHOHO.
OKAY. my privacy setting didnt work out. stupid blogger. i end up locking myself frm reading the stupid blog. argh. and i know the stupid password thingy for blogs dun work. it's heckable. crap. hokay, hurray for those who can mock at me again.
ask me, why so hard up? cuz i'm TOO shocked by a past experience. traumatised. function by emotions is not a good thing. NOT AT ALL. frightened by how ppl talk about u behind ur back. adds on to my inferior complex. i dun see why.
trials and tributations are expected in life. but i dun need that many of it.
okay. i've been exercising extra hard this week, ran for like 4 days. uh gonna do some swimming and running, gymming again tml morning. hopefully get sauna done too. yay.
service today and had cell dinner. john is just soooo funny! oil blotter. lol. and yay we've got a new friendly addition to our big family. :) dinner was alright, super filling and loads of laughter. haha. blessed.
started off my day bad, went on better, den bad again. so tiring. but at least it ends well. :)
i'm sorry. i know u tried. but it's just one of those un-leona days. thanks for being there though. :) *rubs nose.
i'm eyeing a dolce tag necklace online. my eye is sinning again. someone convince me not to buy it pls. ahh. i've got like 100 bucks of suntec vouchers to spend. yay. shop shop shop! my 4 inch chunky heels!
why so troublesome? cuz i dun see anyone else impt. cuz i hate having ppl talking behind my back. cuz i dun wanna be a topic for their gossip times. cuz disappointment push me to filter.
when i thought nobody reads cuz this is like my own lil world, i'm sooo wrong. apparently ppl just cant mind their own biz.
anyways! got my hair cut, the way thomas wan it to be. hahah. i was like "aiyah u cut whatever and any way u like" and he was like wide eyes and say that i'll scold him if i dun like the cut. lol. okay my fav hairdresser always work magic. :) and today i got my hair 'designed' by him. dyed the "framing hair" of my face. i donno how to say it. haha. but yeah i like it. :)
first day of sch, so far so good. though hols are freaking wasted. =/
nihongo so far so good. =D
projects, piling up! but ok la. managable.
lala. i wanna go pedicure! someone say my toe colour very ugly cuz it's all chipped and ruined. hahaha.
ah i so love corrinne may's beautiful seed!
hur hur hur i'm waiting for my suntec 100bucks voucher so i can go buy my 4 inch. wohoho.
i miss my darlings! chew dun work too hard and get thinner okay. almost cannot see already. haha. joyce still look as hamster as ever. haha.
went gymming again :) sweat feels so good. and muscle ache feel heavenly. wheeeee.
a special special someone planted a beautiful seed in my hands. and it blossomed into beautiful songs of love. which lead me to, "every tear you cry, is a diamond in His hands."
i've seen ur efforts, i feel ur change.
thank you. for our first date today.
first date in 3 yrs 7 mths. :)
remember our coin tin. i'll spot check soon. hoho.
josh verdes - save me
white hair, stressed, peeling dry face, water retention.
omg. what is happening to me.
so tempted to pop by toni and guy to spend a bomb to colour my hair. but ah, i said it's a bomb right. -_-
shoes shoes. shoe-buying withdrawal syndrome kicking in. die. i wan THAT new pair of shoe. ahhh. mom's going to kill me. haha.
why do i always get disappointed by ppl these days.
how shallow life can be. that's a question.
anyways, just finished my 2 tests before mid terms. tried my bestest. i can only pray and hope for the best. sentosa next tuesday and moon-viewing at night. =) some chill out on one of the nights with matt, jun, giang they all i hope. laughing session with my girls i hope too! and the rest is mug mug and mug. date me out to mug k.
i'm sorta holding on. can never really let go i guess.
but that's not a good enough reason to get back together.
so i'll just wait.
and i wonder exactly how many ppl are checking out my loser-ish little life. it's not as though i dun feel bad enough already. ha. screws up my definition of 'friend'. ppl who keep quiet knowing u're in shit and living in a shattered world and just broke up with her long loooooong term boyfriend. AND helps u to publicise the news. how nice. it's really comforting to know that ppl i dun even know, knows about my lil break up. REALLY COMFORTING. and now i'm walking around sch wondering who else knows about my misery and my broken family history. why?! i just wan to be someone low profile. i dun join any club or society, i dun take part in major events. den WHY ON EARTH CHECK ON ME?! is my lil loser life soooo interesting and attractive? AND WHY HELP ME TO PUBLICISE?! do i look like i need that? spread the word around so everybody can start holding hands and party and celebrate my misery? that's the only reason i can think of. why?
i always love to bring some happiness in my friends' life. through my nonsense, funny stupid gestures or watever. but i never thought that spreading my misery around will make ppl happy too. WOW.
treat others the way u wan to be treated. apparently some loser dun understand this.
now, go write down "treat others the way u wan to be treated" and copy it a thousand times until it gets into ur bloody brain.
u believe in karma? i do.
i've just seen it. trust me.
FRIENDS. ha. if they even exist. dun trust anyone anymore. thanks to whoever who is so helpful to spread the word around. check up the meaning of RESPECT in the dictionary pls.
seriously, this is the last thing i need in my life right now.
